The title clearly speaks for itself because this is exactly how I have been feeling. My emotions are on a rampage and sometimes I think I am losing my grasp on sanity! Lately I have been pondering on the reality of life (especially life after college), and reality is not really a pretty picture. You spend years in college, late nights studying and writing intense research papers (and lesson plans), you become extremely stressed that your cortisol levels reach the sky, you are tired, and the end result is a Bachelors degree and thousands of dollars in student loans. I also forgot to mention the end result of no job. Yes, my outcome has come down to this. I am usually a very positive person and usually I have a large amount of faith and believe “everything happens for a reason” or “everything will fall into place”, but lately I have lost all forms of positivity. That means I have lost faith in myself and everything around me.
I graduated with a Bachelors in Elementary Education. Some may ask “why would you want to deal with children all day?” Why? Because I love it! I have loved teaching since I was a small child. It was a dream of my youth and I refuse to let go of that dream and passion. In today’s time it seems you cannot get a job without experience or knowing the right person. It really urkes me and makes me cringe that I have chosen a career that I truly love with all of my heart and I have yet to find a job! I am very passionate about teaching! I love every aspect of it, and I am extremely confident in my ability, and I cannot get a job for the life of me. It bothers me that I have found the field that makes me happy and I have so much love for and I can’t get an opportunity. Unfortunately there are teachers out there who are in the field for the wrong reasons and continue to have a job despite their misery and lack of knowledge. Keep my head up right? This shall pass I am sure.
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